year 2005 has ended and going to 2006...well..nothing much happened here...just went into a new school, staying in a new place, made some new friends...but still lifting my old lonesome life. I feel easy after i left my family to further studies but then...it just cant satisfy me...something is missing...something is lost...

 

anyway...I'm studying in foundation in UTAR...the school is cool...the friends i knew are cool...the lectures are boring...met some pretty girl in my class but then i don't feel like getting know with them...just don't feel like it...

 

well...coming here in west m'sia give me a chance to meet some of my online friends who are more closer to me comparing to me secondary friends...this is also a chance for me to get to know a new place..something like that...blalblabla...

 

just hope that life goes on better as time goes by...i give my prayer for those who deserved it so that they will be blessed by the Lord as they go along their way.

 

After attending 7 days of my 10 days SPM... People asking me if my exam was okay...Well, it was okay well I have no regrets on doing mistakes during the exam because I already gave my best shot and if that is my result I have to accept it. Nothing can do. Yea just go on like a normal exam. 3 more days to go and I have to start my next plan that is to get myself out of this home, out of this stressful family. I have a hard time with them. Never had a good conversation with them before. Start with a good conversation then end up with conflict. Sigh~ I want to leave here because I want my own space, my own privacy, my own life. I want to be free from this misery.

 

 

    So many words for a broken heart, so little words for a crimson love. Falling in love with someone is not hard, Wanting a person you love to fall in love with you is hard, Loving a person is harder, Leaving a person you loved is even harder, Forgetting a person you love so much is the hardest.

    Why do we have such feelings like love? It is beautiful when one feels it but yet it is very ugly when it shows its other side. But I never felt such thing called love. I found no love in my family, I found only fear and loneliness in them. This has made me a quiet person. I tried to find love on somebody else...well I fell in love with some girls before tapi I ended up in pain and despair, this has made my "injuriy" worsen. But from these injuries I suffered, I learnt alot of stuffs.
    One loves his/her beloved is not because of the beloved's looks or background, but the beloved's heart. Love is love, it is not just intimate, it is much more deeper than just intimate. The feel of being in loved is like almost unexplainable. It's something that I can't explain.

    Love is not a game. It is something that make one alive. Love is kind. Love is beautiful. Love is sincere. Love one another.

 

 

...Kenneth...